After this next Saturday I will again, not drink for a short period of time. I will take from Feb. 28th – March 21st off. It got me thinking.
Why did I do this? What is the goal? And frankly, the real question could be, do I have a drinking problem? I was talking with some friends about my drinking hiatus. I described it in a few ways:
I was bored with drinking.
I was drinking too much.
I wanted to use the absence of alcohol to focus my energy on something more productive.
Being bored with drinking made me feel like drinking was more of a habit than a problem. Drinking had become a staple of my routine. Part of what I would do on a daily basis. When work was over I would go to the bar or go home and open a bottle of wine/ 6 pack (which I would usually go out again to get another), or have a couple whiskeys with water. I would usually get buzzed and about half the time I would say I would be drunk by the time I fell asleep. A few things about that started to bother me. No variation. You can go to 4,000 different places to drink in the city, but every night was the same.
I was drinking too much: You know how much is sucks to wake up with a hangover? Multiply that by every single day. Weekends didn’t start until noon. I was gaining weight because I wasn’t working out (nevermind the $90 a month I was wasting by not using the gym). I wasn’t happy with myself. I wanted to accomplish something other than throwing back 8 Bud Lights a night. I wanted to work on my screenplay (I have done more of that, but not nearly as much as I would like). I was drinking just to drink. I was drinking because it was what I was supposed to do at night.
Being more productive: This blog is the perfect example. I have a creative outlet that I have not had in a long time. It has been years since I have written on a consistent basis. Each day I have made it a point to read something significant, be it a chapter in a book or an article in The New Yorker. Lastly, I ran 11.4 miles today. That is the farthest I have EVER run. I am 28 days away from running my first half marathon. On January 1st I would have laughed at someone if they said I would be running 13.1 miles on March 21st.
The last 52 days have been eye opening. I’ve rediscovered my creative side. Rediscovered some drive. Rediscovered that I can go out and have a good time without spending $150, just to wake up at noon the next day with a nasty headache and no interest in doing anything other than watch TV. Maybe I needed this to grow up.
I’d like to thank everyone who has sent along encouragement about writing the blog. It’s been a lot of fun for me and I’m glad people have enjoyed reading.
Have a great week.